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by Abilene @ 19 Mar. 2008 - 14:59:43

Not sure what to say.

I did not mean to make everyone sad.

I am doing that quite fine by myself.

Thank you, everyone, for your words.

I will keep taking one step at a time. No, I do not see how time will ever heal this complete physical pain I feel. It feels like I got that phone call three minutes ago and I know that it always will. As I just said to someone in email, I know that I will go on. Not that I have anything left to live for but because I just can't bear the thought that maybe the whole seeing your loved ones when you die theory is all a horrible mistake. At least while I still breathe I can look at pictures but if I died it might just be nothingness.

Sorry. I will try to make better sense later.

Sorry that I am unable to pick up the phone. I just can't right now.

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Old-NickOld-Nick pro
2008-03-19 @ 15:04

It will take time. And you will always feel it.

And there will always be people ready to help or listen when you need them.

x

deleted user [Visitor]

2008-03-19 @ 15:05

Only you can know what you feel and need, dont worry about your friends they know they are there for you whenever you feel ready to talk, and yes i dont think that time does heal or take away the pain, I hope you have all the support you need and my thoughts and prayers are with you always :) *hugs*

electrochickelectrochick pro
2008-03-19 @ 15:11

Abi, I have only just begun to catch up friends blogs this afternoon - I have just found out what's happened.

I'm so so sorry to hear this. You have my deepest sympathy.

Do whatever you need to do to get through each day.

You are in my thoughts.

x hugs x

phoenix2kphoenix2k [Member]
2008-03-19 @ 15:27

Bloody hell... I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Thinking of you and your family.xxxxx

Whatever you need, whenever you're ready for it.

Here for you, hun.

xx

sminchinsminchin pro
2008-03-19 @ 15:42

We're sad because we're feeling a miniscule fraction of the pain that you're going through
We really are here for you, whenever you're ready

boredrichboredrich [Member]
2008-03-19 @ 15:54

we can only imagine what pain you are in and dont want or intend to pressure you in any way we just want yoou to know you are not alone and we will be here for you. as for anyone who says that it will get better or you will get over it is insane it will be with you always I know that it is with me over the loss of my mother it never gets better its always hard. take care and remember we are all thinking of you

evilmomladyevilmomlady [Member]
2008-03-19 @ 15:57

Although I'm not on your friend's list, if you need me, I'm here.
Hugs xxx

Dear Abi

i was shocked to read your last post and words cannot express how I feel for you right now.

I can't even imagine what you are going through or feeling, because I think it must be every parent's nightmare at some point.

hun as they say in a cliche, time will heal, but it is one step in front of the other, one day to pass and eventually the happy memories will come through the tears.

i really feel for you right now, you need to take time for yourself, time to grieve.

Will be thinking of you hun always

Hugs xx

ladee-birdladee-bird pro
2008-03-19 @ 17:22

What you said made perfect sense to me.

Just take your time I'm sure people will understand that you can't face talking on the phone, no-one will begrudge of the time you need.

xx

NotBobNotBob [Member]
2008-03-19 @ 17:24

I just wish I could do something to take away the pain.

We're all here for you, whenever you need us, whenever you're ready.

Take care of yourself.
{hug}

ganesharocksganesharocks [Member]
http://yogini.blog.ca
2008-03-19 @ 18:00

I am so sorry to read this. It is so hard and words can not express

One of my friends went through the loss of a baby some years ago and watching her go through it was one of the hardest things I've ever done.

Take care of you first...I'm sure everyone will understand.

xx

scoobydoofusscoobydoofus pro
2008-03-19 @ 18:31

You've got nothing to apologise for.

x

moltsplacemoltsplace pro
2008-03-19 @ 19:59

x

I don't know any person who wouldn't be sad reading about what's happened in your life - but don't apologise that we feel sad. What's happened to you I fear every day and my heart goes out to you. There is no wisdom I can offer only to say that you aren't alone and you are surrounded by this community of friends whenever you need us most x

You have absolutely nothing to be sorry for.

None of us are pressuring you to talk, we don't insist that our offers of help are accepted right away.

All we need is to make sure you know there are many shoulders, many ears, many friends if and when you need us.

cj592cj592 pro
2008-03-19 @ 21:03

I am sorry to hear what you have been going through.
X

We know you didn't mean to make us sad. We're aching for your pain, hon. We're here. x

Mrs_FMrs_F [Member]
2008-03-19 @ 23:09

Abi don't be sorry, that is what friends are for.

I am sorry you have had to face this all alone, but please don't feel you have to go on facing it on your own. We are all here for you if you want to talk or meet or whatever will help.

Hug

X

deleted user [Visitor]

2008-03-20 @ 00:04

abi your our friend

we just love you and worry about you and want to know your ok x

i wish we could take away your pain

hope someones there with you to help ya through this x

Miza-TMiza-T [Member]
2008-03-20 @ 00:56

I am so sorry for your loss, Abi.
Nothing can be said right now.

(Hugs)

xx

sameoldsameold pro
2008-03-20 @ 01:07

Dear Abi,

I know that I dont know you yet..And yes you are right, there isn't a long enough time to heal this. You will feel this pain for along time and if anyone thinks it will go..It wont ! But your Son Cory will be looking down on you, and will be around you everyday. Speak to him all the time, I promise you, you might not see him yet..But he is with you all the time - taking every step with you,

I really do believe that the good people go first..(not wanting to sound like a loon here)...If you are ever in Merseyside, please message me, and I will show you..How I know, that Cory is by your side x

smitty1247smitty1247 [Member]
2008-03-20 @ 13:43

I'm so sorry to hear about this. It's going to take time, but you will get through it. Obviously, there are loads of people here who would have no problem doing anything for ya if you needed it. Take care of yourself.

sallyontoursallyontour pro
2008-03-20 @ 17:28

So sorry to hear of your pain, my heart goes out to you xx

AndrewsBlogAndrewsBlog [Member]
2008-03-20 @ 19:34

Read this one first, guessed something must have happened to Cody, read the other post.

My reaction Oh Shit.

Sorry for language but that's what I thought.

I wondered where you were, thought new job may be keeping you away from blogging.

Feel for you as much as I can.

It took me about 10 years to get over the loss of my dad, as much as you do get over such a loss.

In some ways I hope you get over the loss of Cody sooner but then I hope you don't so you cherish his memory forever.

Hope that makes sense.

If you were here now I would give you a big hug.

Not much that words can do or say to mend such a loss.

Life goes on bt it is hard.

redleaderredleader [Member]
2008-03-21 @ 07:47

x

Flicky [Visitor]

2008-03-22 @ 07:47

So very sorry, Abs.

Thinking of you.

Love me and him xx

deleted user [Visitor]

2008-03-26 @ 16:10

Hold on Abi. Hold on to what you can.

God we are so sorry.

xxx

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