I have just deleted from my friends list those that have not been active for 6 weeks or more.

I am now leaving for the weekend. Will be flitting from Kent to London to Hemel Hempstead.

Found out that I am meeting with newly discovered sister in Bedford. Where in the F is that? lol.

Have a good weekend y'all.

My apologies now if anyone takes offense to this. It is not exactly graphic in nature but it does step on toes. However please bear in mind that if you judge me from one piece and think you know me because of it, then you are more judgemental than I could have imagined.

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Disrespecting the Man in Front of Me.

My heels click across the stone floor. Is it disrespectful us being here? I am trying so hard to walk on my tip toes as I feel the stares of those already seated. You lead me to a seat, enjoying my discomfort as I gently sit on the hard bench.

I find it hard to believe we are here. The man in front looks at what I am wearing and seems to disapprove. As the orchestra starts to flow around me I feel myself being pulled by the music. I feel your hand draped behind me, touching my back through the flimsy cotton dress. I am internally jerked away from you as the music vibrates through my very soul yet I am pulled back by your presence so close.

I shift in my seat and wince at the stinging pain between my legs. I smile at the memory of how you took me with such delicious violence a few hours before. I feel myself sway as if on a ship in a storm. I feel the man in front of me staring at me, hating me. I close my eyes and sink into the sounds that are echoing all around us. Your hand then softly rests on my thigh and it is like electricity shooting into the very core of me.

I briefly wonder if those around me know what I was doing just a few hours ago? That man in front of me, does he know? Can he tell I screamed? Can he imagine the pain and the fear of not feeling that pain? Is it disrespectful that you brought me in here without letting me take a shower?

As the music gets louder so my breathing gets faster. I feel it so deep inside me. The violins are taking me into the air with them. The drums are beating in time with my heart, getting harder and harder. That man in front of me seems to frown as he hears my breathing. Is it disrespectful that as these angels are singing your nails are digging into my now exposed thigh?

Slowly, agonisingly slowly, the music comes to an end. I feel myself returning to you. I wonder still if it is disrespectful us being here. I know that man in front of me despises me and all that I am. I feel that my body is screaming ‘I am a whore’ and all those around me can hear it. I have brought my filth and depravity into their sanctity.

As you take my hand I feel your quiet strength and I am reassured that I can walk tall. As I stand and take one last look at that man in front of me, the man who is on that crucifix high on the wall, I feel your seed running down my inner thigh. You pull me with you and I smile as I hear my heels clicking on the stone floor.

EDIT: THIS WAS MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

Mrs_F [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 15:30

x

AlexConde [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 15:47

I love it. Brilliantly written!

lyndlj pro
2007-06-22 @ 15:58

I dont see why whoever reads this should judge, you have stated clearly enough what this blog is for.

There again I am not religous, so I dont have that mind set.

As said above, beautifully written.

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 16:16

*puts protective arms around Abi*

Sweetheart, if I had written this story, I would not have apologized or made the remark about stepping on toes simply because it is my blog, my post and if people don't like the post, then they can turn the fricking channel.

How many other people would be sitting in the pews having beat the shit out of their wife, children, husbands, screwed around on their partners, break the laws each and every day..blah, blah, blah...you get my point.

Hubby always sezs that the Church makes a point of accepting each and everybody despite the clothes they are wearing for wouldn't they be hypocrites if they did not. (You would love to listen to him and his open-minded views)

Bet that man in front, fricking judging you, shoulda had a mirror propped in front of his face to see all the things he is guilty of...

You did nothing wrong...the clothes you are wearing when you were there (who cares what you wear?), the seed trickling down your leg (mind the floor and don't trip on the wet spot)...

I am gonna be a Catholic as you know and I can tell you that I look around each and every Sunday and wonder just how many hypocrites there are sitting in the pews, oh ya those righteous assholes who truly think that they are living Christian lives when in fact they are not. Its all the other days of the week that matter and how they conduct themselves.

I am glad you enjoyed the music.

Btw, wanna go to Mass on the Sunday morning in the UK?

PS. I have worn my pyjamas when I am in church (Midnight mass at Christmas and at the Easter Vigil). Mind, the leather coat from Florence mighta distracted them.

Luffs you and kudos to you for sharing and being brave enough to post this.

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 16:23

Erm Sis ...calm down.

You do realise that 'The Man in Front' was/is Christ on the cross right?

lol.

Read slower.

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 16:58

Yup. I knew. Still doesn't change anything I said. If Christ is truly all people claim him to be, then the very fact that you were in church should be all the mattered.

And, I can't help being protective and feisty about you...have no idea why..I am passionate about people I love,...and behave the same way about them as well...

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 17:02

and another thing, *crikey, I do carry on; a swat right between the eyes will take me out or a glass of wine will distract me*

You may believe you were disrespecting the man on the cross but I think not.

sheesh...I am a pistol aren't I?

xxx

AlexConde [Member]
2007-06-25 @ 19:58

Sorry to jump in, but having been raised Catholic, there's a great viewpoint I can offer on this. One of my religion teachers (yes I took religion classes in school) told us "It's ironic that everyone assumes they can judge in the name of Jesus when he was a guy who hung out with beggars and prostitutes" (I hope said teacher will forgive the paraphrasing).

I think Meno had it right. How's that saying from the Bible go? Judge not lest ye be judged? As much as I'm non-practicing, I like to think that a church living up to it's own ideals would welcome you no matter what the circumstances.

(just my 2 cents)

faffajane pro
http://faffajane.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 16:26

Hun that is beautiful!

Do not apologise, it is your blog, and in all honesty, working in a church school, they are the biggest hypocrites around (not meno I hasten to add )

hugs xx

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 17:01

This is Amazing Abi!! You have me totaly awestruck and gaspin for more(no pun intended)
xx

Fi

littlemissaverage [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 17:40

Lovely piece of writing. x

danr2210 [Member]
http://danr2210.blog.uk
2007-06-22 @ 17:52

Very very good.

And anyway, he had a good flogging and did not complain too much.

Maybe you have more in common than you think.

suzeemoon [Member]
http://suzeemoon.friendpages.com/
2007-06-22 @ 22:19

Gorgeous writing. I'm a non-Christian ex-Catholic, but if you go back to what's written, the Man on the Cross wasn't as obsessed over sex as some of his followers. The sexual rules came from elsewhere.

Lindow pro
2007-06-23 @ 07:13

Hi Abi, an interesting read. As everyone above says, beautifully written. Not too sure how I feel about the content. All too far removed from anything I've ever experienced. I'm wondering if I should say more. It's tricky. All your friends have, rightly, been supportive but (there's always a but) is that really what you wanted? I'm thinking not. Well, not automatically anyway. Shoot, I'm getting confused. Okay. I defend and support your right to write whatever you want. Now I'll shut up. James.

jaketaylor pro
2007-06-23 @ 11:13

brilliant and big up to you for writing it- I agree with all Meno said too - you went into there with your head held up, not many in there can in reality.... they are mostly suppressed and repressed emotions boiling up inside their hypocritical lives!

(i'm not the religious type)

EnamelSlide pro
2007-06-23 @ 15:07

You must have got a slight kick out of it, i would have

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-27 @ 12:55

That's a great post medear.

x

This was taken in February. A repost.

EDIT: THIS WAS MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

Old-Nick pro
2007-06-22 @ 14:26

I don't remember seeing that.

How much to see all of it then?

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 15:11

interesting piece of prop!

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 16:00

And yer toenails match too! I remember this...I could so use that shiny silver thing to ram up someone's arse. *kidding* But it does look like fun.

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 16:02

That's a picture for another day.

* gasp *

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-22 @ 16:20

*sniggers*

Due to the resident smart asses I did have three entries in the spoof pictures.

AJ and Steve P tied for 1st and poor CJ was just not as ugly I guess

* mwah *

That was soooooo much fun.

Thanks to everyone that submitted a picture and also a huge thanks to the 72 ..yes SEVENTY-TWO .. people who voted.

Y'all rock and y'all are what makes this place the community that it is.

So without further ado ... the results (only 1st, 2nd and 3rd)

In 3rd place all the way from Kangarooville was the ever sexy Flickers !!!!

On top of her in 2nd place was the little blond cutie Mad Dogs !!!!(Is that a skirt you are wearing in the picture by the way? )

and finally

as always with his pants around his ankles I give to you your winner
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Thanks to AJ for the picture (leave it on your screen for a second so you can see it's animation)

Hope y'all enjoyed this.

... my three blogs.

I knew this would happen.

I don't like having three seperate ones.

Yet they are all about things that are me.

How do I do it? Can I merge them or do I need to take each entry and transfer it over? If I do that ... do the comments come with it?

Help.

... absolutely fucking horrifies me.

Now, maybe those that say I do not need to lose weight can see what I see. Do you see the roll of fat under the bra? The flabby arms? The fat and dimpled thighs? The fat calves? The big as a whale ass?

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

EDITED : THIS WAS MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

gstzas [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 10:17

Hey, its all in the eyes of the beholder, anyway, could do with a chat?

boredrich [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 10:17

hey if it was a picture of me you wouldnt see the sides of the mirror

Old-Nick pro
2007-06-22 @ 10:27

I love the fact you had to stand on something to get yourself all in!

I stand by my earlier statement.
x

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 11:12

??

I'm not standing on anything.

Old-Nick pro
2007-06-22 @ 11:30

oops! looks like you have your left foot on a black box. Didn't look closly at your right one. Sorry.

Was looking at other, erm, bits.

I will be getting my coat then eh?
x

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 11:34

lol. That's my front door mat.

Yes, I was standing dressed like that in front of my glass panelled front door !!

subville pro
http://subville.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 10:29

It is in the eyes of the beholder.

A diet? Or a change of perspective?

I know, I know, but you look fab, Abi xxx

ajnspencer pro
2007-06-22 @ 10:43

Is it worrying I looked at that picture and thought... I had that phone...

I will personally say that I wont stop you trying to lose weight, we have to be happy with who we are.

Having said that I'll sheep the rest of the people and point out I think you look great as you are.

PrincessFiona [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 10:53

hmm throw full length mirrors out just keep tiny ones for makeup

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 10:55

Personally, I reckon it's not a weight losing diet you should consider, but a fitness thing. You've gorgeously curvy and it would be a shame to lose that - but if you do the tightening up through exercise thing, you get to be all smoothly-curvey whilst eating whatever you want, best of both worlds

Please do note that the person doling out this advice has not done anything that could be considered exercise - save hurling herself around dance floors and having sex (not at the same time) - for well over a year...

Abilene pro
2007-06-22 @ 11:13

You are partly right ... but I still need to shed 50lbs.

faffajane pro
http://faffajane.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-22 @ 11:11

You look fabulous hun, wish I only looked half as good!

Hubby has just seen this over my shoulder and thinks you look fantastic - Trust me you look great

[Visitor]

2007-06-22 @ 13:57
i think you 'vr got a cracking figure mrs x

mayisaysomething [Visitor]

2007-06-22 @ 14:09
Taking regularly pictures of yourself, and making sort of 'before and after' series, I mean if you'll do it long enough, you'll notice, say, in some five or ten years, when you'll get a bit more... 'mature' *looks around affraid to use the word 'older'*, HOW BEAUTIFULL you were in June 2007. Enjoy the present day and present shape dear. I would not concentrate so much on losing weight, may be just try keeping your present lovely feminine shape (forget exercise, just eat less*, and drink only/*ok, mostly* water, lots of it). You are a girl in her best years (says a male-evaluator looking over my shoulder), and yes, you look as attractive as a girl in her best years usually does.

*'eat less' means about a half of what you usually eat - for quick results, otherwise... just decide yourself what amount to reduce from your usual 'intake'...

littlemissaverage [Member]
2007-06-22 @ 17:44

you look perfectly fine to me

there's no way I'd post a pic of my flabby arse on here!!!

ladee-bird pro
2007-06-27 @ 11:03

Oh my god i've just noticed how much weight you want to lose - 4 stone bloody hell girl if you lose 4 stone they'll be nothing bloody left of you!

Are you ready for this ?

Are you sure ?

Ok, don't say you weren't warned.

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just kidding but it got you in here.

Now please, please, please get your vote in as it ends in 3 hours.

Awwww c'mon ... you know you didn't really want to see me naked.

Cutest Blog Baby.