This is what my hard working ficking cat does all day.

Edited to Add : * mental note ~ check picture for embarrassing background stuff i.e non-sexy jammies *

Coffee.

Starbucks.

Subsy.

Thursday.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

(Does it count on the excitement meter even if you have already met?)

Don't care if it's tuesday.

I took yesterday off.

Nervous. Wearing black 4" heels, stockings, a camisole and a thigh length mac. I feel like a hooker. Please dear God don't let me get into an accident or get pulled over.

I drive to Cambridge. So very aware of vehicles higher than me being alongside with an occasional clear view into my crotch.

I call him from the end of the road as I am driving in. He opens the garage door so that I can drive straight in. Small mercies ... his neighbors won't see me dressed like a whore.

I get out of the car and he takes my bag from me. He takes my hand and leads me into the house. I am nervous. My eyes darting everywhere. Drinking it all in. Looking everywhere but at him. He leads me to the couch and gently but unyieldingly has me sit down. He sits on the coffee table in front of me.

"Now Abi" he says in that voice, the one that reaches inside me "why won't you look at me?"

I grab the first excuse I can think of.

"I am angry at you" I snap, the words nervously falling from my dry mouth "You left me in a hotel by myself all night"

The stinging slap takes my breath from my chest. The cool touch of his hand feeling the warmth spread over my cheek.

"Never doubt me little one. Never" I try so hard not to sink in his eyes as his voice washes over me "You had been drinking. I will not play with you when you have been drinking that much. I just wanted you safe. Waiting was not a problem."

I am sitting on the edge of the couch like a runner at the starting gate ready to bolt at any time. He puts his fingertip on my knee and pushes it to one side. Spreading my legs apart. I try to instinctively bring them together. Pressure from his fingertip is firmer. He holds my eyes. I swallow hard and allow his hand to guide me. I sit under his scrutiny as he inspects me like a thoroughbred horse. He enjoys my shame and takes his time. He harshly slaps my inner thigh. I jump but do not close my legs. I feel greater shame that I feel the moistness between my legs.

"Good girl" he whispers as he leans in close.

Suddenly, swiftly, with no warning he stands and jerks me by my hair to stand as well. I whimper. My mind is screaming at me to fight, to get away but my body betrays me. It bends to him like the traitor it is. I feel the wetness trickling from me now. I tremble. He smiles. Bastard.

EDIT: THIS IS MOVED FROM ANOTHER BLOG. ALL REPLIES FROM THERE ARE COPIED BELOW.

jackdaw [Member]
2007-06-05 @ 12:00

Ok you now have my attention, but why had you earlier drunk so much?

Jack x x

Abilene pro
2007-06-05 @ 12:11

See the post 'dreaded_anticipation'

That should explain it. I was having fun with the other bloggers and had a wee bit too much to drink.

jackdaw [Member]
2007-06-05 @ 15:57

Sorry chick did not read that one - "must be losing the plot"

Jack x x

subville pro
http://subville.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-05 @ 12:09

Cambridge? It's ok *sniff* I know ya were busy xxxx

Abilene pro
2007-06-05 @ 12:13

Oh hun. Had I fekking know I would have came to see you Sunday (walking unsteady mind you but I would have been there).

Now, as it happens I shall be there Weds night/Thurs day. Hmmmmmm. Lunch mebbe on Thursday?

subville pro
http://subville.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-05 @ 12:17

Ace I'm usually at Starbucks with coffee buddy on Thurs, but we changed it to Fri. It's a date. We have each other's mobi numbers xxx

ladee-bird pro
2007-06-05 @ 12:11

Sorry i always read posts & feel like i have missed something...... Who is this guy is this your regular FB or is it someone new that you met on a site? x

Abilene pro
2007-06-05 @ 12:30

Keep up sweetie. He is first mention in the 'Submissive with Control' titled post (think that was the title anyway)

ladee-bird pro
2007-06-05 @ 12:40

Aaaah right sorry i did wonder but i just wasn't too sure

I guess i shall leave my other question for when you do the second part because things may become a little clearer once i've read the date in its entirity. Don't want to ask you another pointless question

Abilene pro
2007-06-05 @ 12:46

oi !!! No eye rolling that is my job. lol.

No question is pointless if genuine hun. Sorry if I sounded harsh. Feeling a little sensitive today it appears.

ladee-bird pro
2007-06-05 @ 13:36

You didn't sound harsh at all!

I don't know how to word what i want to say because i don't want to seem ignorant or offend you & with not having ALL the details its difficult because its something that could be explained in the other part.

What i am just trying to understand is this..... You (or should i say your body) were quite obviously turned on by what was happening but then you said you felt ashamed & that your mind wanted to fight..... Did it leave you feeling completely degraded & humiliated? Is that the whole point? Are the feelings of shame & wanting to fight back usual for you is that all part of it?

Reading this back i'm not sure i've explained what i wanted to say very well am i allowed to use that icon

ladee-bird pro
2007-06-05 @ 13:42

Oh bloody hell i think i'm just reading too much into this & then pretending like i don't geddit

Abilene pro
2007-06-05 @ 15:15

All will become clear.

Very, very valid questions by the way.

ladee-bird pro
2007-06-05 @ 16:23

Hence my original reason for wanting to wait it out i wanted to see the bigger picture before asking

Juzzzy pro
http://juzzzy.blog.co.uk
2007-06-05 @ 12:23

Kerrrrrrr-ist!

I hope you're telling someone where you're going when you go wherever you go (you know what I mean)....

x

Abilene pro
2007-06-05 @ 12:29

No Justin. I always dive headfirst into something without any regard for my own safety. Pot, kettle, black. *rolls eyes*

Seriously though.

Yes, I have a safe call system in place (which if you would wait for the rest of the story you would see that).

x

Juzzzy pro
http://juzzzy.blog.co.uk
2007-06-05 @ 13:35

Oh, I'm waiting all right. It's v good stuff!

Just being big skinny brother, that's all.

x

TheMusingsOfAMenopausalMama pro
http://theachaprinciple.blog.ca
2007-06-05 @ 13:35

Juzzzy...from what I know of BDSM, he would not harm her in a malicious, oh-we-are-strangers-kinda way but what Abi described is typical of the roles being played out and mutually agreed upon by both parties. There is usually a code word between them that she could utter if things got outta hand. For example, she could say the word "butterfly" and all things would stop. Abi was enjoying this immensely, Juzzzy and knew what could happen ie slap on the face and so on but didn't know where or when...does that help explain things a wee bit?

I was not afraid for her as I have been exposed to BDSM via teevee programs before. The BDSM is really a tight community and they do look out for one another. There is the odd nutter but then they are everywhere..

rithompson [Member]
http://random-veryrandom.blog.co.uk
2007-06-05 @ 13:13

Ooh. For some reason, I'm buzzing with excitement!

EnamelSlide pro
2007-06-05 @ 16:55

He's got me hooked and i've not ever met him

Are you hooked?

rowtheboat [Member]
http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
2007-06-05 @ 18:49

Trust and safety first, medear - much like every other relationship. As long that's there, and you're not feeling bad about yourself afterwards, the rest can be whatever you want.

Which I'm sure I don't have to tell you.

xx

Old-Nick pro
2007-06-05 @ 19:56

I'm going for a ciggie.